New Delhi: Ileana D’Cruz, had already shared her experience of dealing with Body Dysmorphic Disorder and battling depression before. Recently she opened up about the role of her photographer boyfriend Andrew Kneebone in helping her fight off her mental conditions.
Speaking to IANS in an interview from Fiji, the actor said: “Things had got so bad that I was pushing people away. I didn’t realise how much I was alienating people. I would constantly refuse to go out when friends would call. At one point, I didn’t realise I was at home for a week… After that, I got an ultimatum from him.”
Ileana D’Cruz also confessed to having “suicidal thoughts” earlier. Ileana, who had mentioned that depression can be dealt with by first accepting and then through counselling, added, “Now I don’t look at life where I’d say: ‘Oh gosh, my life’s over if I don’t have films any more’. My approach is that there’s so much more for me to do… It (depression) really was in a way god sent… That depression and that phase in my life, as horrible as it was, was needed in a way to switch things back and change who I was as a person.”
Last year, Ileana said her depression stemmed from the fact that she wanted to be “accepted by everybody” at the 21st World Congress of Mental Health. “I used to feel low and sad all the time but didn’t know I was suffering from depression and Body Dysmorphic Disorder till I got help. At one point, I even had suicidal thoughts and wanted to end things. However, all of it changed when I accepted myself and what I was going through. I think that is the first step towards fighting depression,” said the Rustom actor, reported IANS.